tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-366538962011-04-21T19:04:35.627-07:00Allenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16478239066272138415noreply@blogger.comBlogger21100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36653896.post-35102374910347203472006-10-26T15:41:00.000-07:002006-10-26T15:45:15.191-07:00I want to end this cycle that has been tormenting me all of my life. Fear of rejection causes me to leave a man who deeply cares about me on the outside chance that he may decide to leave me. I can't bear the pain of him leaving - so I hurt him and then bear even more pain because its loaded with guilt.<br /><br />I've done it again. I really want to stop.<br /><br />I lie to make men love me. I tell them what they want to hear. I treat them like they are the only one. I hate myself for doing this.<br /><br />I am going to share here about all the shit...the horror of my past...the hurt of my present.<br /><br />It's one step closer to being well. I want to love right at least one time before I die.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/36653896-3510237491034720347?l=learninglessonsoflove.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Allenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16478239066272138415noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36653896.post-1161888438015953822006-10-26T11:32:00.000-07:002006-10-26T11:45:22.233-07:00A predator.<br />An addict.<br />A lover.<br />A lost soul.<br />A listening ear.<br />A liar.<br />A beautiful woman.<br />An aching heart.<br />A kind friend.<br />A wise counselor.<br />A foolish female.<br />A warrior that has lost many battles.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/36653896-116188843801595382?l=learninglessonsoflove.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Allenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16478239066272138415noreply@blogger.com0